New Years of 2013

Year of 2013 is starting at midnight, though i doubt ill be able to stay up until then. if anything i just dont want to especially not for another year of disappointments. But ill be positive, Hyadain is an awsome group and ive been listening to them since 7pm along with a few ke$ha songs. Its been a habit to drink sparkling wine(grape juice) every new years and hang together, but since my mom left early this morning to spend new years out of town there is no one i can hang with and annoy or at least keeps me awake till midnight. Yet the song im listening to is making me tired rather than pumped like it usually does. ONE OK ROCK is an amazing group, yet i love their song "kazen kankaku dreamer" way more than any other song.
As for New Years resolutions i just want to be able to sleep properly and hopefully fix the anemia issue cause it pisses me off. I want to get a job and try to be a more confident me rather than being confident near friends and clam up near people who think im this awsome person. I wanna stop pitying myself, and once again i start the year with All Time Low's Weightless. Keeps me thinking of how the new year could get better. It usually does when i listen to it, this year was pretty good..didnt have all my friends with me but it was better than i thought. So Hope you all have a great year.

Final note: This is the year of the snake and my sis is gloating like crazy, tho 2019 will be my year so long time to wait...hmm lots of time for shenanigans and yaoi X3

New years is comin'

OK, so new years is almost here and since my school wants to start up again on Jan.2 rather than giving us the rest of the week off, i still havent finish my AP US History project. and i think im at the point where i could give 2 B.S about what grade i get, and im accepting the fact that is i continue ill be attending summer school. I dont even mind anymore im too tired to do the work when i wake up.

Aside from that nonsense i got Oblivion Island: Haruka and the Magic Mirror yesterday and when i watched it i was so happy and i felt childlike again X3 yet my sister was so into this "new years party" she was having with her minecraft pals that she didnt want to watch it. Also in that same day i was messin with some pals about what character they should spend their time playin on street fighter 4 and so many of them have ps3, and im sitting here with my xbox360 and nobody to challenge but badmouthing children who cry to their mom about how they want their milk and soda. Then i get an add from some dude who is gaming friends with abunch of my other dude friends and he asks me all these questions about games and things i like, and like some achievement he types we have something in common. And the instant he types that, im like "oh, shoot he gonna talk bout some we should be together mess." I wanna kno why dudes like trying to get relationships with ppl from far away online or stupid crap like that. I mean he likes gamer girls and he doesnt see many of them but i figure if you can find a girl you kno and she is willing to learn how to play you can get a world filled with gamer girls. But im just confused on how a guy and find one thing about you that they like then work on understanding that and can forget the other crazy shit your into. Yet idont care cause i dont date people, cause my brain goes to poop when im in class.

Finally as for year 2013, i hope that itll be good and there wont be many issues with things. Hopefully i can be serious with people and not take any crap from people like ive been doing. so New Leaf is whaat im hoping for this year.

Christmas time!!

So this morning i wanted to wake up at 6AM like i do every Christmas, but i was so tired from stayin up playing Street fighter 4 on Xbox live. So i woke up at 8 i believe to open a box from my aunt with a harajuku purse, a $20 gift card for Barnes & nobles and a harajuku mini hairband and hair clips, then i opened an envelope that had 50 1dollar bills,crisp they were so wonderful i sat there to process that it was real. It was awsome! This Christmas there wasnt much decorating done or presents but i can shop for my own stuff or atleast save my money for later. Ive also been trying to figure out what to do with the day since i didnt get to buy any video games so i played boogie superstar but it wasnt as fun since i lost the microphone and can sing to it. Sat and listened to Relient K and Glee christmas songs, then bugged my sis and her minecraft buddies. Aside from that we had ham and called family to wish them a merry christmas and so on and so forth

..thoughts

this morning i awake tired due to waking at 12 and falling asleep right when my alarm goes off. when i nap for a few more moments i awake to my mother. Minutes later i get up to prepare for school and after standing in my bathroom confused on why havent i killed myself yet, i realize it is due to fear. the lies i tell and the false impressions i leave on people as if i care of their issues. the people who complain to me everyday the same people who wont stop who act as tho their problems are larger than others or that it is something that they cant control when they have the resources to stop it. i believe those people that person in general is weak and is looking for attention. I havent told anyone my small issues because i can control them, because i will remain strong. To want to tell someone im going to kill myself and care of that is ridiculous. Obviously i conform to the way things are is due to staying alive and surviving. In my life i learn and do as told, i follow what is needed to be done because i need order, it is what seems mandatory. To be loud and obnoxious and disrespectful seems to be the things that i hate yet people who hold these traits flock to me, just because i may allow one small outburst at a certain time, or im in the same area as that person and they feel that im someone that may help them when im not. I hate how things are, but a friend of mine told me yesturday that he sees 3 different risa's in the day. the silent/thinking/emo risa in the morning, the random man-fun risa in the afternoon, and the innocent girl risa on our skype talks. I dont know who the REAL Risa is, but if anything i think she died long ago. The latest news on tv now is of a shooting in an elementary school, i dont really care for pandemics i might get worried or concerned abit , but after awhile i dont want to hear more of it. So if you dont like how it sounds, well i guess i just dont care what people think anymore.

Conference/Christmas

In my personal finance class lazing about since ive got a good grade and am caught up with all assignments so i felt like i should do somethin, since tumblr is blocked on these computers ill type on here. So the other day i had a conference with my mom ,counselor , and ap english teacher. We decussed the grade i currently have and things that i need to do in order to understand things better. As for them asking me things i gave up and did not attempt to say anything because i clam up. So i am now going to stay after school every wednsday for tutorials. So that sucks, cause when i stay for it she yells and it gives me a headache. On another note i am making totoro plushies for christmas, and am hoping they turn out better. The first one i made last night was goin well untill i realized i forgot to leave 1/4 space for the sewing and my granma began to take over so im going to make another after i finish with the terrible one i have waiting on me at home.

 

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