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Over the thanksgiving break i had several assignments from 2 classes. Thank goodness that my chemistry teacher is nice, he gave us till tomorrow to turn in 2 out of 6 mid-term review papers. Though my AP English teacher is giving us no leeway and says we needed to turn in a reading journal of Kate Chopin's short stories and a personal narrative. I was able to finish 2 out of 3 stories last night i was so tired i couldnt stand it. Now that i turned in the paper and am home, i feel sad and frustrated cause everyday we have her class she constantly snaps at us or complains about how we have to hurry cause school programs are interfering with her lesson. Its like every time i have her class i feel depressed as to how i cant handle her and if i have a professor like her in college i might just hide. *sigh* also over the break i guess i touched some leaves of some sort(doubt it tho) and now i have some bumps on my elbow that itch like crazy, and there is nothing on the back of my leg but its turned red from me scratching it too much. Even now my arm is hurting from how im scratching it, but anti-itch cream only stops it for awhile.
As for now i feel tired and like im being weighed down by a ton of bricks. Im not as happy as i was during 2nd period and im just daydreaming and listening to Behind blue eyes by limp bizkit and the one that got away by katy perry. soon imma get back to my normal ,smiling ,yaoi-enjoying, and singing quietly self but till then im goin to sit in this unreasonable sorrow watchin yaoi moments :3

Meh/Holidays/Black Ops II

Over the past few weeks ive been unsure of some stuff. Ive been re-evaluating my friendships with some guy friends of mine and im not sure if its admiration or actual feelings for some of them. But since im the quiet type ill remain as such and not say anything. Sadly thats what i feel will keep me from having anymore awkward relationships with guy friends. Yesterday my mom, my sis, my dog and me all went out to petsmart and joanns. We spent most of the day in Joanns getting things for my sis to sew with cause now she has found a "thing." So i spent the afternoon trying to figure out what hobby or talent i have cause i cant think of anything that im special at. Also since its almost Thanksgiving, my aunt and cousin are coming over on Wednesday. Hopefully we have alot of fun and i dont get sucked into shopping this time.

BLACK OPS II IS OUT AND I WANT IT SO BAD, BUT I HAVE NO MONEY SO I CANT GET IT!!!!! I NEED A JOB TO SUPPLY MY GAMING NEEDS!

Classes,songs & today

So yesterday i had my mom come with me to the parent teacher conference and im passing all my classes except my AP English. I enjoy being a big fish in a small pond, but my mom says im smart and should break out my shell and how  i gotta atleast try to pass the class. Song related i have been listening to cute songs and hanging with my friend Misha and she made a video of her and her bf and its so cute cause her art is adorable. I told her how her feelings are adorable and stuff. Yet after awhile i started to listen to some cute music again and i suddenly felt down, like i started to feel sad that im single again and i have yet to find a guy who likes me. I dont really care bout finding one now, but i worry that i wont find one ever. Having guy friends sorta lowers my ability on telling guys my feelings cause i hate seeming girly or anything. But when a friend of mine started flat ironing her hair in class at 4th period today she did my hair and a guy friend of hers was like "Now see, if you just keep your hair out that nasty ponytail you'd be good." and the convo went on about how me fixing my looks would help. Yet the thing with me getting all dressed up and looking nice makes me feel like im trying to stand out so id rather not. And my guy friends would be all surprised and crack jokes bout how i should always dress that way. No thanks, i think ill just stay in my shell awhile longer.