Strange

Im just feeling some type of way today. I was tired this morning but pretty normal like i usually am, yet as i road on the bus home i was pumped and happy. But when i started enjoying some more of G-Dragon's songs i find =>
when  i watched it i was like wait a minute how is it so somber but its got a bleep. As i searched the english translation, it was very sad to me. She was so hopelessly blind in love and didnt notice the things going on,and i began thinking....id like to be blind in love too. I havent ever thought of love as a useful thing but it would be nice, right? i mean now-a-days its not all about procreation and stuff, its got love involved. Sometimes it doesnt workout but it still happened and you have happy memories and the experience. I'd like to be able to have that, even if im hurt terribly it would be nice. Im a little down in the love songs now, even though ive only had slight experiences of crushes  and no ability to fully express emotion without thinking of the consequence of being mocked, id love to express my love to someone but in the moment where i actually have the chance i wont open my mouth so it can be heard. I almost pray i get the courage to voice my emotion when it truly counts and im with my soulmate so i dont lose my one chance.