Classes,songs & today

So yesterday i had my mom come with me to the parent teacher conference and im passing all my classes except my AP English. I enjoy being a big fish in a small pond, but my mom says im smart and should break out my shell and how  i gotta atleast try to pass the class. Song related i have been listening to cute songs and hanging with my friend Misha and she made a video of her and her bf and its so cute cause her art is adorable. I told her how her feelings are adorable and stuff. Yet after awhile i started to listen to some cute music again and i suddenly felt down, like i started to feel sad that im single again and i have yet to find a guy who likes me. I dont really care bout finding one now, but i worry that i wont find one ever. Having guy friends sorta lowers my ability on telling guys my feelings cause i hate seeming girly or anything. But when a friend of mine started flat ironing her hair in class at 4th period today she did my hair and a guy friend of hers was like "Now see, if you just keep your hair out that nasty ponytail you'd be good." and the convo went on about how me fixing my looks would help. Yet the thing with me getting all dressed up and looking nice makes me feel like im trying to stand out so id rather not. And my guy friends would be all surprised and crack jokes bout how i should always dress that way. No thanks, i think ill just stay in my shell awhile longer.